What I do…..
For as long as I can remember I associated my “what do I do” with my paid employment. This was also my means of placing value on myself. To add value, I needed to work harder, longer and climb the ladder. Without my job who would I be? Would I have any value?
Well this year, away from the confines of my workplace, I found out…..
I am the midnight retriever…. of blankies, glasses of water, doses of medicine and soft toys that seek the solitude of the crack between the bed and the wall rather than the comfort of their loved ones arms.
I am the applier…..Of band aids, ice, and carefully crafted truth. Knowledge sifted for useful age appropriate information that will enhance and not harm. Of punctuation in ill written, but lovingly built, 6 year old sentences. Of consequences when all else fails. Of boundaries that are at times a little too flexible.
I am the repairer…of Transformer missile deployment systems, lego creations broken by fumbling hands and maimed barbies with matted hair. Of crushed spirits, burdened hope and broken hearts.
I am the seeker….of playground disagreement justice, of incident reports from all squabbling parties and the apologies that follow. Of lost things, socks, buttons, teddy noses, Lego lights and ninjago swords.
I am the navigator…through the often monotonous mundane, towards little pockets of daily parenthood joy. Carefully steering towards the safe and righteous travels whilst allowing them to journey for themselves.
I am the believer…in the magical healing powers of mothers kisses, prayers to ward of nightmares and to help dreams come true. The tooth fairy, Easter bunny and Santa Claus. That these baby days will be over oh so fast and then, one day, the house will be clean, the washing all done and they just might remember fondly all that I do, and all that I am, to them.
That’s what I do.
This is part of the blog Every Day in May project. I wont be joining every day but this topic just spoke to me.